My New Normal... ✨{journal entry 1}

And just like that she was gone...
Not inside me - nor in my arms.
I know she will always 
be my angel and I can feel
her buzzing around me. 
But I can’t help but feel empty 
and I feel as though this - 
The emptiness is what takes 
the longest to heal 
and may not fully ever, 
because they were once 
ours in our physical life 
whether they made it 
earth side or not & 
I don’t know if anything 
could ever fill that void... but maybe that’s what’s so special... Deeply & eternally I don’t think 
we ever want their special void 
to be filled✨
-
After leaving the hospital 
and getting home... what I found the most 
profound thing about loss 
is that time doesn’t stop 
for anyone - and that clock 
keeps on ticking... I mean your whole life 
has been turned upside down 
in the blink of an eye
and everyone else is straight 
back to doing them - 
even the closest people to you. 
It’s fucken’ hard! -
So for all those beautiful women 
on the same/similar journey 
to me right now, asking what it is
that I have been doing to get through...
-
I honour all of my emotions 
by living in the now... ‘no time for what ifs, 
only what is!’ I have accepted one of 
the hardest things,
that life won’t be the same
“normal” like before... -
This is now my new normal....and it will take some time to get used to, but it will be just as beautiful🙌🏻✨Jz xxx
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